i have never despised my house b4 , even it is a very small house, very squeezy. but was very comfortable , because i know tt my mum dotes on me a lot. in another words , i can sense warmth in my home.

however, as time turns the page , i am starting to dislike the place where i have lived for 18 years. because i dont have my own privacy, and i tend to get very frustrated at times .
and it is not easy to live under the same roof with people ,(though is ur family members) with different characteristics, and all of us have very bad -temper. and situation gets worse when we dont have the right attitude and respect for each other.

sometimes, i was thinking, how come i am born in a family tt is not well to do. y cant i be like some of my friends, whom they live in big houses. But , the fact is, i cannot choose my own parents , i know.

i need $ very much , but i know my family's circumstance. but i know tt this could be changed if tt particular person is willingly to change from the very first day i was born. which i believe tt i could have livesd a better life than this. But it was too late. sometimes , when i look at him, i am really very disappointed

i have never thought of the importance of money until the day whereby i gotten my O lvl result and in need of money to pay for NAFA's fee. but in the end, i didnt get to pay the registration fee, i guess u all should noe the reason.when i got home, i looked at myself in the mirror and i asked myself, "y?"

now , i need money esp for braces , to enroll in private sch and sometimes help my mum to lighten her burden and get her a new pair of glasses. but i know i have to depend on myself for tt (everything). i am not trying to say tt i have despising my parents for being poor . its just tt i feel very tired , really . i really dont know how many years do i need , in order to fulfill my dreams/ goals and the day tt i can have $ to bring my mum for travel .

i have a relative who is damn rich , and she has 3 sons , i can say tt they r kind of useless chap .
she told her sons not to enroll into ITE, if they want to further their studies , she can sponsor them. and she said "y get into ITE ?"

i am thinking " of course u will say tt . because all u have is money , and nth else. if u were us , will u ask ur son to further their studies in private institutions?"

i had never afraid of poverty b4 in my life, but now i have changed .
though i believe tt money is not everything, but it make wonders.
and i promised myself to earn enough $$$$$$$$$$$ for my future
the moral of this blog post is 原来我也怕穷! (i am afraid of being poor )